183.4 Truth

Sad to say some folks will read this just because it has a image of some booty.  Ya'll need to get some depth into your life and realize there is more out there to the human condition besides looks.

Back to me...so I woke up today determined again.  Lost a pound, managed 12 hour fast before breakfast and feeling pretty good about myself.

One truth tho...my husband claims he has never cared about my weight or appearance and for the most part I think he actually believed that.  But now that I'd dropped 90 lbs and parts of me are firming up quite nicely, his praise belies his heart.  He constantly tells me how great I look and how happy he is that I'm so focused on my journey to health.  Calls me "skinny."  Hugs me and points out how he can wrap his arms all the way around me.  Even the sex is different since I can now be on top without squishing him.  He mentioned that as well.

My truth:  the more weight I lose, the less in love with him I become.  He appears to be shallow and that is not attractive to me.  Out of all my post, this is the one he would read simply because of the booty shot I've included.  He would have stopped reading after 'Back to me'.   

Everyday I'm getting stronger in mind and body and spirit.  I've stop praying to a God and turn for inspiration and assistance from the Universe.  Is the Universe a God?  Don't know but seems when I ask God for guidance, nothing happens.  I ask the Universe and it does.  Makes ya wonder.

Didn't mean to get so deep in this post, but it is what it is.  Want to go swimming with my husband but he decided he needed a nap at 10 am.  That man has got to get a job.  It's been 2 months and I need my personal time to get shit done around the house.  Can't make noise if someone is sleeping.

Sigh....eat less, move more.