Self Sabotage

So, I woke up this morning with an extra pound.  😖  It happens especially when you start your day with a slice of cheesecake and end it with a beef gyro from Arbys (damn fries.)  My thought process was that I could eat the cheesecake early and burn it off.  Probably would have if it hadn't been for lunch at Ihop (damn crepes).   Since I never eat at Arby's and I love gyro's, I gave into temptation.
In the end, I went over my daily calorie allotment of 1710 and consumed 2300, give or take a few. 

Guess no more eating out for me.  Unless I starve myself all day.  It's for the best until I learn to control my eating habits.  Just couldn't see bringing home 2 crepes or not finishing the gyro even tho it would have made a great lunch for today.  So much for mindful eating.

Read an article that discussed Self Sabotage and it said to ask yourself "why are you afraid of success?"  I still can't answer that question.  Never been one for major introspection, just roll with punches as they land kind of girl.  Stubbornness would be the only answer I can come up with.  Mad at myself for getting fat and pissed that I have to lose it in order to be happy and avoid a future hip replacement surgery.

I'm incorporating Air Squats & push ups (from my kitchen counter) into my daily.  The granny flab on my underarms is getting insane. 

Wonder if I could purchase that Thigh Master that Suzanne Sommers use to peddle.  Turns out that is the correct way to firm up the inner thighs, but doing on a yoga mat without a Thigh Master is better (or is it?).  I do them in my bed when I remember to.

I'm rambling.  It happens.  Tomorrow I'm planning on my usual work breakfast of 2 packets of oatmeal which is 230 calories (bring you own cinnamon), Starbucks Frappuccino light (100 calories), and a banana (110 calories).  Total calories is 440.

Lunch will be a 290 calorie Eat Smart meal.  With 2 Halo's (95 calories) and some pita chips & garlic hummus for snacks (240 calories).   I'll still have 645 calories to use for dinner.  Plan to make do with 500 and hopefully see 221 on Friday morning when I step onto the scale.  🤞

Thinking dinner will be baked ham (100 calories per 3 oz serving), just gotta figure out my veggie sides and try to avoid the starch.

Eat less, move more!